I let the kids sleep in today as although things worked yesterday and I had both kids asleep by 8pm, Little Man wet the bed because he really never had a chance to go to the toilet before falling asleep, he literally crash and burnt out on the couch. It is also freezing this morning and looks like it is going to rain.
My main aim is to have them sleeping a minimum of 10hours and I have succeeded for day one. Lets see how the day goes with a 7.30am start.
Friday, December 29, 2006
Thursday, December 28, 2006
The Plan
It continues and has been successful so far. Haven't been able to
convince Big Little Man to help tidy up after his bath, but Little Man
crashed on the couch at 6pm, not to bothered as I wanted them in bed
by 7pm and he did have a very busy day with the walk at 6.20am this
morning, 3 swims in the pool and all the other general running around
he does. I need to continue this plan of action for 6 weeks, as it
takes 6 weeks to form a habit and I want all of this like second
nature to them both.
convince Big Little Man to help tidy up after his bath, but Little Man
crashed on the couch at 6pm, not to bothered as I wanted them in bed
by 7pm and he did have a very busy day with the walk at 6.20am this
morning, 3 swims in the pool and all the other general running around
he does. I need to continue this plan of action for 6 weeks, as it
takes 6 weeks to form a habit and I want all of this like second
nature to them both.
Drastic times need drastic measures
Last night was my last straw with Big Little Man, actually he must of had heaps of last straws but at 11pm last night he was wide awake and arguing with me to continue playing his DS. I was ready to just leave and was tired of telling him to go to bed, he woke the Little Man and I just lost it.
Out came the pen and note paper and a new schedule that he would have to comply with or have a very sorry life, this is what it looked like:
6am - Wake up, then exercise (walk to playground)
7am - Breakfast
8am - School Lessons
9am - Free Play
10am - Free Play
11am - Snack
12 noon -
1pm - Lunch
2pm - Exercise (bike ride)
3pm - Free Play
4pm - Free Play
5pm - Dinner
6pm - Bath and Tidy up
7pm - Quiet room time the story time
8pm - Lights out and Sleep
It was really thought out, but I wanted him to dedicate some time to lessons and away from all the electronic games, I want him outdoors more and I most of all is have him sleep at a more reasonable hour.
So it's now 7.30am and the plan has worked fairly well so far, took a bit off effort to get him up at 6am and Little Man actually got up in a better mood. Took about 20 minutes to get dressed and organised to leave the house and we all went for a walk to the playground. In total we were out for 40 minutes and home by 7am.
I got them to set the table for breakfast and then we all sat together to eat, took a zooming 10 minutes. He did 3 lines of his lessons and I would have preferred 10 minutes so may have to work on that. Decided they behaved well so they can watch TV only no games till 8am. He has been begging for his DS but I am holding strong and no DS till 8am, maybe he can start learning to read time during this time as well.
We have some cousins coming over for a play today but that shouldn't alter too much in my plans, hopefully it should help in making them tired.
Am I being a bitch waking my kids to exercise in the morning? NO just being a parent who is trying to get her kids the most out of life. I have to justify all this of course!
Out came the pen and note paper and a new schedule that he would have to comply with or have a very sorry life, this is what it looked like:
6am - Wake up, then exercise (walk to playground)
7am - Breakfast
8am - School Lessons
9am - Free Play
10am - Free Play
11am - Snack
12 noon -
1pm - Lunch
2pm - Exercise (bike ride)
3pm - Free Play
4pm - Free Play
5pm - Dinner
6pm - Bath and Tidy up
7pm - Quiet room time the story time
8pm - Lights out and Sleep
It was really thought out, but I wanted him to dedicate some time to lessons and away from all the electronic games, I want him outdoors more and I most of all is have him sleep at a more reasonable hour.
So it's now 7.30am and the plan has worked fairly well so far, took a bit off effort to get him up at 6am and Little Man actually got up in a better mood. Took about 20 minutes to get dressed and organised to leave the house and we all went for a walk to the playground. In total we were out for 40 minutes and home by 7am.
I got them to set the table for breakfast and then we all sat together to eat, took a zooming 10 minutes. He did 3 lines of his lessons and I would have preferred 10 minutes so may have to work on that. Decided they behaved well so they can watch TV only no games till 8am. He has been begging for his DS but I am holding strong and no DS till 8am, maybe he can start learning to read time during this time as well.
We have some cousins coming over for a play today but that shouldn't alter too much in my plans, hopefully it should help in making them tired.
Am I being a bitch waking my kids to exercise in the morning? NO just being a parent who is trying to get her kids the most out of life. I have to justify all this of course!
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
1/4 way to looking like Halle
I recently took some new photo's of myself for a challenge I was taking part in at CK and I must gloat that I don't look half bad. Even though I have been pigging myself over the last 2 months when I do sit back and concentrate and workout My body feels and looks better so it is enough incentive to continue working out.
Have a look at this before and after shoot, this is also a huge incentive to never ever return to the size that I was. In the before shot I'm actually 8 kilo down from my heaviest, so I would have look much worst. I am really proud of myself, it's nice to hear little man say "your beautiful mummy" as I believe it now.
I also got my rollerblades, well I won them off ebay and just need to go and collect them, then I can start skating and tone those glutes!
Have a look at this before and after shoot, this is also a huge incentive to never ever return to the size that I was. In the before shot I'm actually 8 kilo down from my heaviest, so I would have look much worst. I am really proud of myself, it's nice to hear little man say "your beautiful mummy" as I believe it now.
I also got my rollerblades, well I won them off ebay and just need to go and collect them, then I can start skating and tone those glutes!
Sunday, December 17, 2006
Rollerblades
Do you all recall the day I wanted the bike trailer? Well today I want Rollerblades, my reasoning is very similar to the bike trailer, but this time I follow the kids on skates. Great idea and so much cheaper!
I've seen a pair on ebay, $5! How can I not consider them, even if I only wear then once and hated it, $5 is a cup of coffee theses days, so what to you think?
Yeah, bid!
I've seen a pair on ebay, $5! How can I not consider them, even if I only wear then once and hated it, $5 is a cup of coffee theses days, so what to you think?
Yeah, bid!
Saturday, December 16, 2006
Christmas is 9 days away!
Where has the time gone? It's not like the year has past me by without me noticing but it certainly seems to have flown by awfully quick.
I had one glorious day where both the boys and the man were at pre-school or work, I was amazingly bored as we have run out of funds to go shopping or do anything, but at the same time the peace and freedom to do what I liked was brilliant, I can not wait for next year when big little man is off to school 5 days a week and little man is off to pre-school for 2 days...oh I'm all smiles!
Christmas shall be dull this year with the man working, but I think the lack of parties to go to might be nice too. Not really getting anything for Christmas, bought some clothes already and hoping to get my hands on the Nintendo DS we bought for big little man as the man got himself a PSP and big little man already has a game boy. I don't need it and I don't really like games, but you can get the SIMS on it and that sound like fun, especially on the days the kids are driving up the wall.
But that's it, life is boring - oh wait! I met the CK ladies, they all seemed nice but we were al quiet and didn't say much, I wouldn't mind going on one of those city walks to find out more about them, but making the man watch the boys for an entire day is another challenge all on it's own I'm just not ready to tackle yet. Maybe 2007 will see him loosen up a bit and let me live a life...as so we wait.
toot toot, time to put the kiddies to bed, will blog again soon!
Update on my cat: It seems that he had a very close call and it's thankful that cat's have several lives as I'm sure that my kitty lost one over the last week. Kitty stopped eating altogether then disappeared for about 3 days, after hours of searching and assuming the worst I found my very sick cat under the house in an impossible to get to spot. But I did get him and have discovered that a cat drinking chlorinated water doesn't fair to well. So with lots of fresh water, in about 5 bowls all over the yard and house he is back on the roads of health. He is extremely skinny but I'm feeding him 3 times a day and he should be back to his old sleepy self in no time. I'm just glad that he didn't die, I wasn't ready for that.
I had one glorious day where both the boys and the man were at pre-school or work, I was amazingly bored as we have run out of funds to go shopping or do anything, but at the same time the peace and freedom to do what I liked was brilliant, I can not wait for next year when big little man is off to school 5 days a week and little man is off to pre-school for 2 days...oh I'm all smiles!
Christmas shall be dull this year with the man working, but I think the lack of parties to go to might be nice too. Not really getting anything for Christmas, bought some clothes already and hoping to get my hands on the Nintendo DS we bought for big little man as the man got himself a PSP and big little man already has a game boy. I don't need it and I don't really like games, but you can get the SIMS on it and that sound like fun, especially on the days the kids are driving up the wall.
But that's it, life is boring - oh wait! I met the CK ladies, they all seemed nice but we were al quiet and didn't say much, I wouldn't mind going on one of those city walks to find out more about them, but making the man watch the boys for an entire day is another challenge all on it's own I'm just not ready to tackle yet. Maybe 2007 will see him loosen up a bit and let me live a life...as so we wait.
toot toot, time to put the kiddies to bed, will blog again soon!
Update on my cat: It seems that he had a very close call and it's thankful that cat's have several lives as I'm sure that my kitty lost one over the last week. Kitty stopped eating altogether then disappeared for about 3 days, after hours of searching and assuming the worst I found my very sick cat under the house in an impossible to get to spot. But I did get him and have discovered that a cat drinking chlorinated water doesn't fair to well. So with lots of fresh water, in about 5 bowls all over the yard and house he is back on the roads of health. He is extremely skinny but I'm feeding him 3 times a day and he should be back to his old sleepy self in no time. I'm just glad that he didn't die, I wasn't ready for that.
Thursday, December 07, 2006
Cat Depression?
Is it possible that a cat can be depressed? My cat has been acting
very strange since my parents left, he just sits there all day, head
to the ground and won't eat a thing. He is an old cat, over 10 yrs old
but it's only something I noticed the other day.
He still goes about his everyday business, sleeps near the pool, moves
away when the kids come, he meows if you call his name but it's like
he is just not there in spirit. Sick? not sure at all. I've given him
some soft food for breakfast which he usually doesn't get and will see
if it is eaten when I get home if not then it is likely something more
serious and a visit to the vet may be in order.
Poor Kitty.
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
Frumpy and Lumpy
Since my parents left over a week ago I have done nothing but eat, we have celebrated little man's 3rd birthday 3 times and with my uncles and mothers birthday, a total of 5 cakes have been consumed and my arse is showing it!
I just can not find the motivation to move and exercise properly again, all I do is very much incidental and it is just stopping me from gaining huge amounts but I really wanted to be at my goal at Christmas not over it. I have exactly 19 days till Christmas day and want to, HAVE too lose 2 kilo's to be back in my 57-58 kilo range, will be heaps happier if I can be in the lower end of 57 as at this weight I feel taught and not so lumpy. It's weird that I feel lumping at 59 kilo's when I lived my life so long at 80+ kilo's.
The man has really been nice the last few weeks and has agree to meet the CK girls at a Christmas get together on Sunday, should be an interesting day as many of these people I chat with online feel like friends and would be nice to see if we click in the same way in person.
That's it, will blog again soon, was very hard doing the blog when there were so many people about, but time is returning so you should all here from me again soon.
I just can not find the motivation to move and exercise properly again, all I do is very much incidental and it is just stopping me from gaining huge amounts but I really wanted to be at my goal at Christmas not over it. I have exactly 19 days till Christmas day and want to, HAVE too lose 2 kilo's to be back in my 57-58 kilo range, will be heaps happier if I can be in the lower end of 57 as at this weight I feel taught and not so lumpy. It's weird that I feel lumping at 59 kilo's when I lived my life so long at 80+ kilo's.
The man has really been nice the last few weeks and has agree to meet the CK girls at a Christmas get together on Sunday, should be an interesting day as many of these people I chat with online feel like friends and would be nice to see if we click in the same way in person.
That's it, will blog again soon, was very hard doing the blog when there were so many people about, but time is returning so you should all here from me again soon.
Thursday, November 30, 2006
Peace
Well it's well over a week since I've had a real chance to blog, it was so nice to have my parents here with me and spending time with the kids, but at the same time it is nice to have the house to myself again.
I have to praise my mother, she is a true hero. I have don't know where she finds the patience to deal with my dad but I am amazed as I would have just lost the plot if I were in her boots. Since dad's illness he talks incessantly, never shuts up and is always correct. He argues about everything and is so defensive you just have to look at him and he thinks that you want to fight with him. The kids loved him though, they never saw too much of that adult goings on and maybe that is why the innocence of childhood is so valuable. They simply just loved their grand dad and he had no faults.
Big Little Man has been moving onto his grown up world with his orientations at his new big school, he seems very excited and I am so glad that I signed him up to LA as the 2 boys he knows there are also going to the same school, he told me that his "friends" were going to go to school with him and that he was very happy, nothing more could have pleased me that day.
Little Man is also turning into a big boy, today he went off to pre-school for the first time and they said he was a real champ. Some how he managed to have a yoghurt fight with his brother, but hey they are my boys after all, who ever said they would behave in the care of others!
As for myself, my mothers lovely home cooking has seen 2 kilo's creep back onto my bottom, so now I'm attempting and failing but getting back up again to lose the extra weight but also go back to my healthier ways. It's amazing how quickly you can let things go and how hard it seems to get back on track. Hopefully I am back there by Christmas, although it shouldn't matter to much as we aren't really doing anything anyway.
Well, boring as I am, that's it, nothing more to say!
I have to praise my mother, she is a true hero. I have don't know where she finds the patience to deal with my dad but I am amazed as I would have just lost the plot if I were in her boots. Since dad's illness he talks incessantly, never shuts up and is always correct. He argues about everything and is so defensive you just have to look at him and he thinks that you want to fight with him. The kids loved him though, they never saw too much of that adult goings on and maybe that is why the innocence of childhood is so valuable. They simply just loved their grand dad and he had no faults.
Big Little Man has been moving onto his grown up world with his orientations at his new big school, he seems very excited and I am so glad that I signed him up to LA as the 2 boys he knows there are also going to the same school, he told me that his "friends" were going to go to school with him and that he was very happy, nothing more could have pleased me that day.
Little Man is also turning into a big boy, today he went off to pre-school for the first time and they said he was a real champ. Some how he managed to have a yoghurt fight with his brother, but hey they are my boys after all, who ever said they would behave in the care of others!
As for myself, my mothers lovely home cooking has seen 2 kilo's creep back onto my bottom, so now I'm attempting and failing but getting back up again to lose the extra weight but also go back to my healthier ways. It's amazing how quickly you can let things go and how hard it seems to get back on track. Hopefully I am back there by Christmas, although it shouldn't matter to much as we aren't really doing anything anyway.
Well, boring as I am, that's it, nothing more to say!
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
Secrets
Oh I'm thinking that my secret blog is really necessary as I'm feeling a bit smothered by the man lately. Since I have lost my weight he thinks I'll leave him and no reasoning seems to help, this is his own personal self esteem issue and I love him although most of the time all I want to do is bitch about him, but deep down he a good man just has some OCD and paranoia issues, if he was so bad I wouldn't have stuck about for so long, kids or not.
The reason I feel I really need this secret blog is because he has started to read my email and questioning the email's I send, hello that is going a bit far I think... I feel a discussion then a fight happening tonight, thank goodness I created this secret email to go along with my secret blog and myspace, OMG what will happen if I get busted?
Note: The above was posted via email yesterday but it fail to get here so here is the update:
We had a talk, there were some tense moments, even a few quivering voices about to burst into tears (me) but then he seemed to click inside and understand my need to still be an individual, that it is possible to be a partner, a mother and me. He seem to finally understand that there will always be things we will never have in common and that as a loving partner we just lump it and not let get in the way if it doesn't effect anything.
SO over all it worked out, I had to cancel going to a meeting at the pre-school which ultimately started this all off as he hates my commitment to things that don't mean anything, that I just do things because I feel obliged not because I want too. But he cooked hand-made gnocchi for me, we drank to much beer and vodka and ended up having wild sex on the kitchen floor...too drunk to recall how we ended up there, but we did!
The reason I feel I really need this secret blog is because he has started to read my email and questioning the email's I send, hello that is going a bit far I think... I feel a discussion then a fight happening tonight, thank goodness I created this secret email to go along with my secret blog and myspace, OMG what will happen if I get busted?
Note: The above was posted via email yesterday but it fail to get here so here is the update:
We had a talk, there were some tense moments, even a few quivering voices about to burst into tears (me) but then he seemed to click inside and understand my need to still be an individual, that it is possible to be a partner, a mother and me. He seem to finally understand that there will always be things we will never have in common and that as a loving partner we just lump it and not let get in the way if it doesn't effect anything.
SO over all it worked out, I had to cancel going to a meeting at the pre-school which ultimately started this all off as he hates my commitment to things that don't mean anything, that I just do things because I feel obliged not because I want too. But he cooked hand-made gnocchi for me, we drank to much beer and vodka and ended up having wild sex on the kitchen floor...too drunk to recall how we ended up there, but we did!
Sunday, November 19, 2006
In Laws
Everyone has them if they choose to have a partner, even if it is the
family of a close friend they are like in laws and they tend to have
some facet of them that total drives you nuts.
I think I get along fairly well with my in laws, but they are so
particular that the smallest thing can upset the balance and it's
rocky seas ahead, well I can't recall if I told you about my incident
and it is certainly not a little incident but lets just say I caused a
Tsunami about 6 month ago and the effects of it seem like they will
never fade. Regardless of what occurred and who was wrong or right at
the time I have plain had enough of the guilt that should be and would
rather them just exit my life then pretend to like me in front of my
face, they all walk on egg shells when they are around me, like they
are playing it safe, what bloody for!
I had one incident with BIL4 but every member of that clan has taken
his side but never ever asked us what occurred, he has always been the
god loved brother, there is always one in a family, ours is my sister,
she can never do any wrong, but that is beside the point for the
moment and it is just shitting me beyond all ends I just want to
scream when ever his name is mentioned.
The man likes to make little jokes and believes his family are in the
wrong but when he starts to get effected by their stupid ways it
upsets him and in turn it upsets me too. I'm not sure why I'm blogging
about it, I think because it is caught in my mind and it is ruining
Christmas plans.
Oh to early in the morning to start thinking of it all again, will
just concentrate on myself and my family as we are all that matter.
Friday, November 17, 2006
BOOKCLUB Blog: Across the Nightingale Floor by Lian Hearn
Firstly I am sort of reading 2 books at the same time, I'm not saying The book of Flying was slow or boring, I just started to read the book that my sister mentioned Across the Nightingale Floor by Lian Hearn which sucked me in and I just couldn't put it down. I can't even describe what makes this book interesting, it is the story of Japanese clans from days gone by, where women were delicate and serene and men were warriors, villans and hero's. It is a 4 part book, and I have just collected the next title in the series, but I shall wait and finish the first book I borrowed, after all I am a fair reader. I'll also wait to report on it once I read al the books or maybe before i start the 3rd in the series I have also borrowed "Raising Boys by Steve Biddulph" in a vain hope to see if i help my boys become happy and well-balanced men, just as the subtitle states.
Turing into Miss Piggy
59.6kilos! OMG, I was 56.5kg 2 weeks ago, my parents are making into Miss Piggy! I'm not eting nothing today unless it is a veg and healthy - gezz I have to do something!
Thursday, November 16, 2006
Christmas Shopping
OMG, spent the day starting our Christmas shopping and even though I
have pre-budgeted everything, everything that we look at is so
expensive. We thankfully have bought half of all our Christmas
shopping and that is great when you have to buy gifts for 21 people.
The MIL is the hardest to buy for as she has everything known to woman
or if she doesn't have it, it is because it is completely out our
price range. I'm thinking of a manicure set, as she will always have
hands with nails.
I would also like to express my deepest thanks to Ebay for it's super
cheap items which would normal cost a mint elsewhere. Big little man
is the electronic game freak, so all his GBA games have been bought
from ebay and the man's big bro 4 son's are getting soccer shirts.
The only problem with Ebay is that the man see things he wants, now he
feels big little man need a Nintendo DS and I don't think he does... I
shall share the outcome soon as that auction ends in a hour.
The one thing I'm amazed with is we haven't found anything at all
suitable for the little man, we just have know what he would really
enjoy. We bought him Batman toys for his birthday but that is where
our idea's end. Comments people, what to buy a 3 yr old (have I asked
this before?)
As for me and the man, I don't think we deserve anything anyway.
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
Freak me out
I was just on MSN and some weird person started talking to me, I thought it was a CK person as I have had a few CKer's add me in the past, but this was some guy. I told him because I didn't know him that I wasn't going to talk to him so he got all nasty...it has totally freaked me out. I have used MSN for so long and never had this happen to me, I have blocked him and am curious if this new secret web life is making me paranoid, I never freak out about anything!
Myspace
I am trying to create a Myspace and I have no idea what I am doing, I just wanted to start one so that I could keep in contact with Fella (yes the same sick Fella who spent the weekend here) but it is so boring. But hey what can you expect from the boring SAHM!
Anyway I am hoping to find a cool blog off our beloved blogger that I can steal some idea's from, if not the myspace will remain as it's name sake.
Anyway I am hoping to find a cool blog off our beloved blogger that I can steal some idea's from, if not the myspace will remain as it's name sake.
Monday, November 13, 2006
The house is full
Just a quick note, to myself really as I'm sure there is no one out there who reads this crap but me, after all I am boring as bat shit!
My parents have come down to stay with us for 3 weeks, firstly to go to big wedding of our cousin that was on last Saturday and then hanging about till the end of the month for an uncles 65th birthday. i love them about, mum and I sitting about talking rubbish and drinking tea, makes everyday a little less boring, bit like seeing the bat, not just the shit. :D
Dad still is missing a few screws and does not shut up, he can talk about everything and anything without pausing for breath, my mother is a true champion to put up with that, it would drive me insane!
I have big little man and little man on fish oils and vitamins is a vain hope to calm them down, all the research states that it takes about 6 weeks to take effect, so here's hoping a super calm Christmas. Talking of Christmas, thank goodness for ebay as half of the gifts are coming from it. Thos Game boy games are so expensive and it seems that is all the big little man wants. We have no idea what to get the little man. If any one does read this, please throw me your idea's for gifts for 3 yr old boys! Thanks in advance!
Well don't want to get busted and have my secret blog found out, and with the PC in the kitchen getting busted is quite easy, to many times i have had to just shut down the page because someone is about to turn the corner...ohhh the secret life, so exciting! Actually i had a Myspace, but got busted and had to close it...the man is SO paranoid!
My parents have come down to stay with us for 3 weeks, firstly to go to big wedding of our cousin that was on last Saturday and then hanging about till the end of the month for an uncles 65th birthday. i love them about, mum and I sitting about talking rubbish and drinking tea, makes everyday a little less boring, bit like seeing the bat, not just the shit. :D
Dad still is missing a few screws and does not shut up, he can talk about everything and anything without pausing for breath, my mother is a true champion to put up with that, it would drive me insane!
I have big little man and little man on fish oils and vitamins is a vain hope to calm them down, all the research states that it takes about 6 weeks to take effect, so here's hoping a super calm Christmas. Talking of Christmas, thank goodness for ebay as half of the gifts are coming from it. Thos Game boy games are so expensive and it seems that is all the big little man wants. We have no idea what to get the little man. If any one does read this, please throw me your idea's for gifts for 3 yr old boys! Thanks in advance!
Well don't want to get busted and have my secret blog found out, and with the PC in the kitchen getting busted is quite easy, to many times i have had to just shut down the page because someone is about to turn the corner...ohhh the secret life, so exciting! Actually i had a Myspace, but got busted and had to close it...the man is SO paranoid!
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
Sunday, November 05, 2006
Do I make you sick?
Oh my, Fella was throwing up all night and I feel mildly responsible as we over ate a little, drank to much wine and polished off the rest of the Lindt chocolates.
There is nothing worse then hearing your friend bringing up her guts all hours of the night, thankfully I'm not a sympathetic vomiter or there would of been a whole lot of mess going on, hope she feels better soon!
There is nothing worse then hearing your friend bringing up her guts all hours of the night, thankfully I'm not a sympathetic vomiter or there would of been a whole lot of mess going on, hope she feels better soon!
Saturday, November 04, 2006
Happiness is a box of Chocolates
And even better when they are Lindt Chocolates. I wonder if the Lindt family all have tooth decay or are all grossly overweight, maybe they are covered in pimples and have diabetes but at least they get to enjoy some of the finest chocolate and then share it with ME!
I felt very loved yesterday, although a little lopped sided as it was only my family who sent me well wishes, it just felt like a nice huge hug all the same. I really should make more of an effort on people's birthdays if it generates the same feelings I get from a few quick phone calls, I think just knowing someone out there has taken the time to think of you is lovely.
I got my cute handbag and will get my diary too. I feel what I hand write is different to what I type, not sure why but it just is, maybe it's because who may see it, but the styles seem very different. I recall seeing a beautiful leather bound, old style diary in Borders so the next time I head there I will have a look, may need to wait to get some more money as it is a bit more then I would normally fork out. MIL will throw me a few more $$$ at Christmas so I will use that!
Now I have spent half the day looking at other people's blogs, just clicking away at the "next blog" icon at the top and seeing where it leads me. it is terrible interesting and I do suggest you do it one day. It's nice to know the world is filled with so many different people, with different views to share. There are also some great designed blog's, I have looked about on how to improve mine, but I am at a complete loss. i would love to add a photo of my new bag in the middle of my text, but not sure how to do it, don't you worry I'll work it out one day!
I'm waiting for Fella to come over, she is my best friend from Melbourne, we have a very unique relationship but one that I would never give up, i feel closer to her then i do most friends. Fella and I met at work in 1996, whoo 11 years, and only knew each other for 6 weeks but it was enough to bridge a strong friendship that has lasted over 800km and through phones calls and emails. We are so very different, but when we are together we just enjoy what we can offer each other, she takes from me the boring calm of sahm and she brings me face masks and pedicures which I wouldn't do on my own. Just got a SMS and Fella is 45min away!
My strickness for the last 2 weeks has paid off and i was 56.5kg this morning, lets bet I'm back to 58 by the time Fella leaves? She is a CK'er too but not the forum kind, it will be strange to try and diet together, hopefully she is at interested as me in just having the weekend off.
The big wedding is only a week away, I think I am more excited then the bride!
I felt very loved yesterday, although a little lopped sided as it was only my family who sent me well wishes, it just felt like a nice huge hug all the same. I really should make more of an effort on people's birthdays if it generates the same feelings I get from a few quick phone calls, I think just knowing someone out there has taken the time to think of you is lovely.
I got my cute handbag and will get my diary too. I feel what I hand write is different to what I type, not sure why but it just is, maybe it's because who may see it, but the styles seem very different. I recall seeing a beautiful leather bound, old style diary in Borders so the next time I head there I will have a look, may need to wait to get some more money as it is a bit more then I would normally fork out. MIL will throw me a few more $$$ at Christmas so I will use that!
Now I have spent half the day looking at other people's blogs, just clicking away at the "next blog" icon at the top and seeing where it leads me. it is terrible interesting and I do suggest you do it one day. It's nice to know the world is filled with so many different people, with different views to share. There are also some great designed blog's, I have looked about on how to improve mine, but I am at a complete loss. i would love to add a photo of my new bag in the middle of my text, but not sure how to do it, don't you worry I'll work it out one day!
I'm waiting for Fella to come over, she is my best friend from Melbourne, we have a very unique relationship but one that I would never give up, i feel closer to her then i do most friends. Fella and I met at work in 1996, whoo 11 years, and only knew each other for 6 weeks but it was enough to bridge a strong friendship that has lasted over 800km and through phones calls and emails. We are so very different, but when we are together we just enjoy what we can offer each other, she takes from me the boring calm of sahm and she brings me face masks and pedicures which I wouldn't do on my own. Just got a SMS and Fella is 45min away!
My strickness for the last 2 weeks has paid off and i was 56.5kg this morning, lets bet I'm back to 58 by the time Fella leaves? She is a CK'er too but not the forum kind, it will be strange to try and diet together, hopefully she is at interested as me in just having the weekend off.
The big wedding is only a week away, I think I am more excited then the bride!
Friday, November 03, 2006
Happy Birthday to me
And so another year has come and gone and I'm another year older, bugger it why does it just feel like every other day, well I guess simply it is just another day!
The kids don't have a clue it's my birthday and as the man went off to work at the crack of dawn and he didn't have the chance to make them give me hugs and kisses which I would have liked. Talking of the man, I had to remind him that it was birthday yesterday, because I'd still love a card, some effort would be nice. I think that birthdays are meant to be special, to show that person that your happy that they lived another year with you and that your ready for another year with them. Am I being pathetic?
I did get a gift, but I bought it myself about a month ago, still would have been nice to get something when I woke, I always put in the effort for him and the kids. Hang silly banners, leave cards on the table and silly messages. Oh well, ho hum, what can I do?
The man's mum gave me some money so I'm going to buy a cute handbag that I've had my eye on but didn't want to spend the my own money on and get myself a new diary. I'm re-thinking the diary as I use you (my lovely blogger) but it's not the same is it, I like to look back on my old hand written diary's every once in a while, proves to me that my life does move forward and that I do do things. My hand written diary's may come in handy if I ever get Alzheimer's or if I die and my kids can read them and know what their mother was like, although all they will find out is how annoyed I get with them most days, oh my I'm getting depressing!
Oh well, Happy Birthday to me!
Sunday, October 29, 2006
BOOKCLUB: My review ~ Past Secrets by Cathy Kelly
Well I have just put down the book and I liked it. It was a nice book and not a heavy on the mind either, when I first read the description I was a bit worried that it would be a bit of a girly book, but although it was about the 4 lives of 4 different woman, they all had something in common and that was that they had secrets in their pasts.
No Desparate Housewife secrets, like dead bodies buried under the pool sort of secrets, but secrets that had held them back from living their lives or having the lives that they dreamed about. Once the secrets were shared, they needed to be confronted and each charactor grew from it so it had a very positive ending. I like the way that Cathy Kelly writes, it is in the same ways and expressions that Monica McInerney writes, maybe it is an Irish thing as both autors are Irish, but what ever it is i think I would be happy to read another one of her books. Past Secrets gets a happy face from me.
My dear sister has suggested a few books to me, so I will be off to the library tomorrow to return my book and seek out my next book. Am still waiting on my reserved book but was told that it will be a long wait for it.
No Desparate Housewife secrets, like dead bodies buried under the pool sort of secrets, but secrets that had held them back from living their lives or having the lives that they dreamed about. Once the secrets were shared, they needed to be confronted and each charactor grew from it so it had a very positive ending. I like the way that Cathy Kelly writes, it is in the same ways and expressions that Monica McInerney writes, maybe it is an Irish thing as both autors are Irish, but what ever it is i think I would be happy to read another one of her books. Past Secrets gets a happy face from me.
My dear sister has suggested a few books to me, so I will be off to the library tomorrow to return my book and seek out my next book. Am still waiting on my reserved book but was told that it will be a long wait for it.
BookClub: My review - Past Secrets by Cathy Kelly
Well I have just put down the book and I liked it. It was a nice book and not a heavy on the mind either, when I first read the description I was a bit worried that it would be a bit of a girly book, but although it was about the 4 lives of 4 different woman, they all had something in common and that was that they had secrets in their pasts.
No Desparate Housewife secrets, like dead bodies buried under the pool sort of secrets, but secrets that had held them back from living their lives or having the lives that they dreamed about. Once the secrets were shared, they needed to be confronted and each charactor grew from it so it had a very positive ending. I like the way that Cathy Kelly writes, it is in the same ways and expressions that Monica McInerney writes, maybe it is an Irish thing as both autors are Irish, but what ever it is i think I would be happy to read another one of her books. Past Secrets gets a happy face from me.
My dear sister has suggested a few books to me, so I will be off to the library tomorrow to return my book and seek out my next book. Am still waiting on my reserved book but was told that it will be a long wait for it.
No Desparate Housewife secrets, like dead bodies buried under the pool sort of secrets, but secrets that had held them back from living their lives or having the lives that they dreamed about. Once the secrets were shared, they needed to be confronted and each charactor grew from it so it had a very positive ending. I like the way that Cathy Kelly writes, it is in the same ways and expressions that Monica McInerney writes, maybe it is an Irish thing as both autors are Irish, but what ever it is i think I would be happy to read another one of her books. Past Secrets gets a happy face from me.
My dear sister has suggested a few books to me, so I will be off to the library tomorrow to return my book and seek out my next book. Am still waiting on my reserved book but was told that it will be a long wait for it.
Body for life
The man has decided it is time to get fit and lose a bit of his bulk, he isn't a big man but there is muscle under there so some toning would benifit him. He has decided to do it via the Body for Life program. A friend of his is doing this and has turn very buff and obviously inspired my man.
I don't mind him following programs, but these programs seem to cost a small fortune, the protein powder cost $85 for a tiny 18 serves! The book cost $50 and I'm sure he is going to want to by weights as the program is very targeted to weight training. I wouldn't mind some weights myself but this time of year is just the wrong time of year. Christmas is always a killer in this house with money, then in January both car's have rego and fees due. It literally takes us till March to get back on track with our cash and next year big little man is off to school, so there is more cost!
Found out today that my niece (on the mans side) is pregnant. She is 17 and it was sort of expected that she would fall pregnant at a young age, that sounds really terrible, but her life choices were leading to becoming a doctor if you get my drift. I'm not shocked and feel that she may excel at being a mother, I hope the father-to-be is there to support her. MIL says that her granddaughter is same as her daughter, well the apple certainly didn't fall far from that tree did it as she did have her first child at 16yr too.
Oh well cest la vie as long as it's not mine!
I don't mind him following programs, but these programs seem to cost a small fortune, the protein powder cost $85 for a tiny 18 serves! The book cost $50 and I'm sure he is going to want to by weights as the program is very targeted to weight training. I wouldn't mind some weights myself but this time of year is just the wrong time of year. Christmas is always a killer in this house with money, then in January both car's have rego and fees due. It literally takes us till March to get back on track with our cash and next year big little man is off to school, so there is more cost!
Found out today that my niece (on the mans side) is pregnant. She is 17 and it was sort of expected that she would fall pregnant at a young age, that sounds really terrible, but her life choices were leading to becoming a doctor if you get my drift. I'm not shocked and feel that she may excel at being a mother, I hope the father-to-be is there to support her. MIL says that her granddaughter is same as her daughter, well the apple certainly didn't fall far from that tree did it as she did have her first child at 16yr too.
Oh well cest la vie as long as it's not mine!
Friday, October 27, 2006
Big Little Man :(
I know I whine about my boys a lot, but big little man has really huge emotional issues I just don't know how to deal with, he is sulky or angry, loses the plot (like throws things) and today the pre-school teacher (more like the headmaster) told me when it was time to pack up some toys, he lost it and started hitting his head on the floor, very hard and refusing to stop. He has never done the head hitting at home, but has hit himself in the head when things don't go his way, she is going to give me a list of child physiologist for him which I think he does need, it's like he needs kiddy anger management classes.
She thinks he has esteem issues also, that if I don't look into them now then they can develop into other emotional issues. He is a pain but i don't want that for him.
The thing that is getting to me is, is this my fault? I'm not the best mum, I never know how to deal with him, I scream a lot, ignore twice as much. I do praise him for good things, but they are far and few in between. When DS2 was born I was so tired and angry all the time I just couldn't tolerate him so during this time there was a bit of spanking, not anymore, I don't like hitting the kids unless they are doing something dangerous, like running out on the road when I've told them 2 sec before they have to hold my hand.
I don't want my kids telling me when they are adults I did it all wrong if I can fix it now. I just want to cry, I've always admitted I've had hard kids but maybe they are hard cause I'm hard and have such negative feeling about them.
What do I do?
She thinks he has esteem issues also, that if I don't look into them now then they can develop into other emotional issues. He is a pain but i don't want that for him.
The thing that is getting to me is, is this my fault? I'm not the best mum, I never know how to deal with him, I scream a lot, ignore twice as much. I do praise him for good things, but they are far and few in between. When DS2 was born I was so tired and angry all the time I just couldn't tolerate him so during this time there was a bit of spanking, not anymore, I don't like hitting the kids unless they are doing something dangerous, like running out on the road when I've told them 2 sec before they have to hold my hand.
I don't want my kids telling me when they are adults I did it all wrong if I can fix it now. I just want to cry, I've always admitted I've had hard kids but maybe they are hard cause I'm hard and have such negative feeling about them.
What do I do?
Bike riding is enough
Okay I guess I was in one of my states last Saturday where I felt trapped in the house and the clouds of sanity surfaced and made me realise that the bike trailer would not have been a good idea.
Firstly, I went for a huge 1 hr bike ride today just with little man in the baby seat that is at the bake of my bike. I decided that I was so fit and healthy that I could tackle a new bike track that I knew was 90% up hill on the way back, I forgot that after 40 minutes of standard riding that I would be tired and that I had a 15 kilo child weighing me down. So needless to say I never made it up the hill on the bike, my heart was beating right off the ricketier scale on my HRM and I was starting to believe that I couldn't get enough oxygen in me quickly enough.
I could hardly even keep the bike steady as I walked it up the hill, I was walking like someone who had been trapped out in the desert with no water, dragging my legs in odd steps, but I did make it to the top and I got back on that bike and I headed home. But this did make me realise, how in the world could I tow a trailer with 2 boys in it, 2 boys with a total weight of 35 kilo's plus the weight of the trailer! I can't and doubt that I ever will!
So what at the plans now? Big little man is off to school next year and little man is off to pre-school for 2 days, so that means I can just continue to take little man or go on my own, I'm sure you can guess the option I am veering too! When little man is a bit older and stronger I shall consider a tag along, then at least he can pedal too, whether he can keep up is a whole other story.
Firstly, I went for a huge 1 hr bike ride today just with little man in the baby seat that is at the bake of my bike. I decided that I was so fit and healthy that I could tackle a new bike track that I knew was 90% up hill on the way back, I forgot that after 40 minutes of standard riding that I would be tired and that I had a 15 kilo child weighing me down. So needless to say I never made it up the hill on the bike, my heart was beating right off the ricketier scale on my HRM and I was starting to believe that I couldn't get enough oxygen in me quickly enough.
I could hardly even keep the bike steady as I walked it up the hill, I was walking like someone who had been trapped out in the desert with no water, dragging my legs in odd steps, but I did make it to the top and I got back on that bike and I headed home. But this did make me realise, how in the world could I tow a trailer with 2 boys in it, 2 boys with a total weight of 35 kilo's plus the weight of the trailer! I can't and doubt that I ever will!
So what at the plans now? Big little man is off to school next year and little man is off to pre-school for 2 days, so that means I can just continue to take little man or go on my own, I'm sure you can guess the option I am veering too! When little man is a bit older and stronger I shall consider a tag along, then at least he can pedal too, whether he can keep up is a whole other story.
Sunday, October 22, 2006
I want one of these...YESTERDAY!
Sometimes I wish I were more compulsive with my buying. Years ago I
wanted to get a bike trailer but I could never justify the cost, but
today I want it again.
The Man has been in bed till 1 pm (bloody lazy sloth!) and I feel like
a bike ride, I can't go because I would have to take the kids, I can
only carry the little man in the seat carrier, but if I had a bike
trailer all my problems would have been solved.
Now these things retail for $400-600AUS, on ebay they want $300, even
second hand are very expensive. So I am thinking I should get one as
the resale value will still be high and I can use it during the school
holidays and until big little man can ride a proper bike on his own
and then get a tag-a-long for little man.
Yes, now I just need to find $300. Would it be so wrong to use the
money we have saved in the kids accounts? After all it is for them...
I could use it to shop with to, and as a pram, when we go up to QLD I
can ride to the beach, I see nothing but advantages, but then again
when i want something, I won't stop till I think I must have it, and
I'm so bloody bored today and if I had one of those trailer I could at
least go out. Do I need one? Who gives a bat's bum, I want one and I
wanted it yesterday!
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
Tolerance
I would like to think that I am a very tolerant person, which is defined as: "Inclined to tolerate the beliefs, practices, or traits of others", BUT there is this one girl on my diet forum that if i saw her for real i would have to walk away if fear of uncontrolled violence.
I don't know specifically what it is about her that gets under my skin, but firstly she seems to know everything and has opinion of everything also, she seems to have all the facets of dieting but has never gotten close to her goal weight and it's not like she has 40 kilo's to lose or have issues in her life that should stop her. She basically sounds sounds like a selfish cow.
Someone is trying to organise a Christmas get together, we are talking about meeting people from an online forum, people you don't know, where the only thing we have in common is losing weight, so I would expect meeting people of all ages, colours creeds, and situations. I doubt I get along with all of them, but then again I am so laided back that I most likely would, but even before she meets these people she doesn't want to place HERSELF in a situation she doesn't like, which is kids. She doesn't want to have to go to a meet up where kids may spoil her the experience for her!
OK OK I may be a bit bias as I am a mother of kids, but never ever in my day did I believe that kids shouldn't be involved in things because it may limit my enjoyment, even the upcoming wedding is going to have kids. The man thinks that kids shouldn't go to weddings as it is an adult function, but if kids don't see these things how do they learn, I went to so many weddings when I grew up, I wanted to be married. I mean what is the percentage of married people who go on to have kids? They should see what they are getting into, no?
I do agree some situations to cause for children to omitted, fancy restaurants, fine theatre such as ballet and opera, but I feel the reason is because you need to be mature to enjoy what these things bring, like drinking red wine, the taste does really get better with age. But come on a picnic? The girl just shit me! Simple as that, she shits me and yet again she has shitted me off.
So will we go to this Christmas thing... she has turned me off, so nup, they have all managed life without meeting me and they can continue to do so!
I would love to meet a few of the people I have become close with, but these people are real not living in a facade of their own shit!
Oh Oh, she just posted again But at an evening event hopefully their partners could babysit A, she doesn't have a partner, I'm sure her ideals are to high and mighty and B, if she ever did have one not all partner like to miss out too!
I really hate this person don't I? Wow I now have 3 people in the world I can't stand!
I don't know specifically what it is about her that gets under my skin, but firstly she seems to know everything and has opinion of everything also, she seems to have all the facets of dieting but has never gotten close to her goal weight and it's not like she has 40 kilo's to lose or have issues in her life that should stop her. She basically sounds sounds like a selfish cow.
Someone is trying to organise a Christmas get together, we are talking about meeting people from an online forum, people you don't know, where the only thing we have in common is losing weight, so I would expect meeting people of all ages, colours creeds, and situations. I doubt I get along with all of them, but then again I am so laided back that I most likely would, but even before she meets these people she doesn't want to place HERSELF in a situation she doesn't like, which is kids. She doesn't want to have to go to a meet up where kids may spoil her the experience for her!
OK OK I may be a bit bias as I am a mother of kids, but never ever in my day did I believe that kids shouldn't be involved in things because it may limit my enjoyment, even the upcoming wedding is going to have kids. The man thinks that kids shouldn't go to weddings as it is an adult function, but if kids don't see these things how do they learn, I went to so many weddings when I grew up, I wanted to be married. I mean what is the percentage of married people who go on to have kids? They should see what they are getting into, no?
I do agree some situations to cause for children to omitted, fancy restaurants, fine theatre such as ballet and opera, but I feel the reason is because you need to be mature to enjoy what these things bring, like drinking red wine, the taste does really get better with age. But come on a picnic? The girl just shit me! Simple as that, she shits me and yet again she has shitted me off.
So will we go to this Christmas thing... she has turned me off, so nup, they have all managed life without meeting me and they can continue to do so!
I would love to meet a few of the people I have become close with, but these people are real not living in a facade of their own shit!
Oh Oh, she just posted again But at an evening event hopefully their partners could babysit A, she doesn't have a partner, I'm sure her ideals are to high and mighty and B, if she ever did have one not all partner like to miss out too!
I really hate this person don't I? Wow I now have 3 people in the world I can't stand!
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
BOOKCLUB: Update...
Got a little lazy after finishing Marley and Me, have been seriously
thinking of getting a dog but am going to look into all aspects first
and also choose a dog that i will love and enjoy, not something my
husband wants and leaves for me to take care of. I have so far fallen
in love with the breed "Shetland Sheepdog". They look like a Collie
(Lassie) but is not a Collie at all, they are a medium sized dog with
what sounds like the most beautiful temperament...just like me!
We have contacted a breeder and it looks like the next batch of
puppies is due in April, but it is very much dependant of the litter,
so we sit and wait, but April is perfect timing as the kids will be
older, both will be at school/pre-school and they cost a small fortune
where we will need all that time to save for one, so stay tuned for my
dog new in the future!
Now onto the update of my current book:
I have just started reading the book and I seem to like what I have
read so far, a woman who can "see" things and the start of teenager
finding first love, can't say anymore as I haven't read enough, but I
have pass the first 10 pages with our cringing, so I shall continue
till next time.......
thinking of getting a dog but am going to look into all aspects first
and also choose a dog that i will love and enjoy, not something my
husband wants and leaves for me to take care of. I have so far fallen
in love with the breed "Shetland Sheepdog". They look like a Collie
(Lassie) but is not a Collie at all, they are a medium sized dog with
what sounds like the most beautiful temperament...just like me!
We have contacted a breeder and it looks like the next batch of
puppies is due in April, but it is very much dependant of the litter,
so we sit and wait, but April is perfect timing as the kids will be
older, both will be at school/pre-school and they cost a small fortune
where we will need all that time to save for one, so stay tuned for my
dog new in the future!
Now onto the update of my current book:
I have just started reading the book and I seem to like what I have
read so far, a woman who can "see" things and the start of teenager
finding first love, can't say anymore as I haven't read enough, but I
have pass the first 10 pages with our cringing, so I shall continue
till next time.......
Sunday, October 15, 2006
Okay, today I have decided to get back on track with my health. Since getting to goal, which was such a huge achievement to me, I have going a bit lax and am starting to feel it.
I still have a lean body, but after eating rubbish for the last few weeks, I feel so sluggish, going to the loo isn't any fun, IYKWIM, I'm not the sort of person who wants to read a novel in the toilet to pass a bowel movement! I also have this strange chest cold that has been around far to long and just won't budge. Every morning now I end up in a coughing fit where my entire chest area aches like I have been winded, not nice.
So I have updated my exercise spreadsheet that I used when I first started losing weight, set it up with some new challenges and will see how I go from there. I'm not out to lose weight and need to keep reminding myself of this, just to continue to get lean and feel fit. The man is on the band wagon too, going through my recipe books with gusto, telling me what he wants to cook and what we should try. It is so much easier when you have your partner interested in the same goals.
I love my diet site that I visit, I think I love it more then some of it's members and this gets me down because I am so motivated some days, I get these crazy ideas and when no one show the same interest I think that I must be just annoying them all. I'm feeling like that cousin-in-law I can't stand, where everything is about her and her crazy idea's. I hope I'm not to pushy with my web site and ideas, I don't want to ostracise myself from them, they are my only friends most days as I never see any real people much these days. Oh well I'll just plod along as it keeps me going and I'm the one that counts in the end!
The only good thing my man taught me - I am #1!
Friday, October 13, 2006
Long hot slow day ahead
I just want lie down all day today, it's meant to be a scorcher and the sun was already blazing it's mighty rays at 7am when the damn neighbour decided it was the right time to mow his lawn!
The kids have been on my nerves again since they have woken, wanting this and that and I am so over everything I'm eating mint slices for breakfast, screw it! I love mint slices, they would have to be the best biscuit ever created. Is it the dark chocolate coating with the soft mint patty and crispy biscuit - YES! The sweet taste - YES! What ever it is I love them, morning, noon or night!
The man took the night off last night, he has had enough of work and just didn't want to go in. I completely understand because I think that we are both in the same place, he has been at this job for 6 years and I have been stuck at home for 6 years and we are both had it up to our eyeballs in our jobs. He thinks staying at home with the kids is nothing but fun, but I thinking going to work and socialising is nothing but fun, yes you still have jobs to do but the side benefits of working is what I need now.
Now having the man at home could be a good thing, but he can be quite lazy and I generally don't cook on the nights he works so he is just going to have to lump the left overs if he intends to stay home another night. Left overs aren't so bad actually, there is yummy lasagne so there shouldn't be to many complaints.
I think I'll spend most of my day in front of the PC chatting on my favourite forum and then go for a swim later in the day... yeah, that a plan.
The kids have been on my nerves again since they have woken, wanting this and that and I am so over everything I'm eating mint slices for breakfast, screw it! I love mint slices, they would have to be the best biscuit ever created. Is it the dark chocolate coating with the soft mint patty and crispy biscuit - YES! The sweet taste - YES! What ever it is I love them, morning, noon or night!
The man took the night off last night, he has had enough of work and just didn't want to go in. I completely understand because I think that we are both in the same place, he has been at this job for 6 years and I have been stuck at home for 6 years and we are both had it up to our eyeballs in our jobs. He thinks staying at home with the kids is nothing but fun, but I thinking going to work and socialising is nothing but fun, yes you still have jobs to do but the side benefits of working is what I need now.
Now having the man at home could be a good thing, but he can be quite lazy and I generally don't cook on the nights he works so he is just going to have to lump the left overs if he intends to stay home another night. Left overs aren't so bad actually, there is yummy lasagne so there shouldn't be to many complaints.
I think I'll spend most of my day in front of the PC chatting on my favourite forum and then go for a swim later in the day... yeah, that a plan.
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
Jillian Micheals
Got up when the man left for work this morning, 5.40am. It is so bright now and with a perfect day expected no clouds and just the big hot sun, it was even brighter in the room. You couldn't blame yourself if you thought you had slept in.
Anyway, I generally just crawl back into bed when the man is off to work and just lay there in the warmth of the quilt till the kids get up, but I though I would snatch this "time" for myself and workout. I haven't done a morning workout in so long, I don't even remember the last time, 10am would be considered early!
So I donned on my exercise gear, grabbed my hand weights and aerobic step, turn on the TV and let Jillian Michael's tell me off. That woman is so fit, she looks fit, doesn't break a sweat and hardly even seems to tire. She inspires me with the enthusiasm that she has towards exercising and her routine is unique and gruelling but I love IT! I feel it all later, right now I'm still letting my heart rate come done to normal and feel all lovely and warm, but tomorrow all the muscles in my thighs and shoulders will ache and I will wonder why I tortured myself yesterday.
Jr1 has just woken and has spoiled my entire day already, I shouldn't have been a mother, kids just frustrate my nerves to the very core, I just want to beat the crap out of him daily. Thankfully, well for his own sake, I have some patience and I don't hit him, but he is damn close.
I think I have been stuck at home to long, I really need to do something that occupies my time other then the kids. For a time it was reading and still is a nice release but you need peace to enjoy a book and what is that in this house of screaming? Then it was exercise, the adrenaline or endorphins that it gives off, or just that time I felt like I'm doing something for myself, but since getting to goal and no more need to lose weight, exercise doesn't do it for me anymore. So I'm stuck in this house, with kids who drain my spirit and it makes me mad.
Do I want to work? absolutely! But the man's shifts are crap and to hard to work around and maybe only when the boys are off to school can I consider a life away from this house, but then the man and I have all these plans to do the things we never had the chance too when the kids were at home - this sounds great too. I'm horrible as either way it's the kids that get in the way.
Said enough, they are calling for breakfast...when can they start doing these things without me? It doesn't help the fact they don't eat cereal...pains in the arses
Enough. Put on the ipod. Drown their sounds out.
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
X-box & Playstation
Have I told you all how much I hate these things? No?
Well I hate them so much I'm ready to get out a sledge hammer and smash them into a million pieces and even though the kids will throw wobbles like no other wobbles they have ever had.... I don't bloody care!
Well I hate them so much I'm ready to get out a sledge hammer and smash them into a million pieces and even though the kids will throw wobbles like no other wobbles they have ever had.... I don't bloody care!
Sunday, October 08, 2006
Useless Crud
My husband is useless when it come to having to deal with people. Today he wants to get something for a project that he is working on, but who has to go the hardware store and get the items, talk to the sales staff...ME! useless Crud!
Okay re-cap, I think I got a bit annoyed at him because he completely dismissed a suggestion I made, but I will still happily agree that he is pretty much useless when it come to dealing with people. he can do it but he just doesn't because he thinks he will say the wrong thing or something stupid like that. He say's that because I worked in a customer service position I just have better people skills, which I do, but that doesn't mean that he can't have a go at improving his people skills. Kind of reminds me of someone... see blog below, hmm apple doesn't fall to far from the tree does it?
Okay re-cap, I think I got a bit annoyed at him because he completely dismissed a suggestion I made, but I will still happily agree that he is pretty much useless when it come to dealing with people. he can do it but he just doesn't because he thinks he will say the wrong thing or something stupid like that. He say's that because I worked in a customer service position I just have better people skills, which I do, but that doesn't mean that he can't have a go at improving his people skills. Kind of reminds me of someone... see blog below, hmm apple doesn't fall to far from the tree does it?
Saturday, October 07, 2006
Little Athletics
This morning I took Jr1 to his 4th Little Athletics and I hate to say
it he is completely crap and I just get a headache urging him on to
even finish!
I never participated in anything like this as a child and I know I
would have loved the challenge, but not Jr1, his life and existence is
only to play the stupid X-box, anything that involves a challenge or
that he has to push himself more then he thinks is necessary, he will
slump himself on the grass and souk. yes i have a soukie child, the worlds worst i imagine. I imagine all the other mums and dad's with the soukie kids at home just given up for trying.
How long to I have to keep trying? Will he just put in half an effort
NO! i'm the only parent that has to run with him in ever race, i
practically push him over the finishing line, actually i do push him
over the finishing line. His embarrassing and i'm disappointed that I
have such a low achieving child. There has to be something wrong with
me to talk of him this way, I do support him and I don't call him a
loser, but COME ON! Yes i too am not the best but I do give things a
go, even if it makes me feel uncomfortable but I do try. I will keep
going with the hopes that one day he will just surprise me and want to
actually really participate.All fingers crossed!
I guess another reason I sent him there was so he could make friends that would attend his Kindergarten next year, and that has been
achieved. I have met a mother there who seems friendly, she even
bought me 2 "milko" lollies.
Well, I'm meant to be off to K-mart today to buy some rubber mats so I can skip in the backyard, why do I bother? I guess I like this new
body I have but need to keep working to keep it. Trust me i can
certainly eat my way back to being heavy again in no time.
I have decided that any photo's that I put up will be distorted to protect the innocent, they haven't asked to be outed by this bitch.
Friday, October 06, 2006
Why not?
I guess many Bloggers start with this question, why not Blog? is it stupid, who will read it, does it matter...
Well I've created a blog as I just want the freedom to talk or blog about whatever I want, I keep a diary but I never really say all I want in it as my husband likes to read it, I don't get the chance to complain as i often want to about the things that annoy me and just generally bitch and vent and get things off my chest. I hope this will be the place, so then I can move forward from the to many negative feeling that I have in my life that i generally shouldn't.
There is not much to me, that is why my blog is titled Boring SAHM, for those not in the know, that stands for "Stay at home mum". That's all I do, stay at home with the annoying, screaming kids and wonder why I wanted this sort of life. that's me in a nutshell, all boring me!
I have achieved things I'm sure, I've recently (took 6 hard long months) to lose 25 kilo's and I look great, not buff enough to be sexy, but all the same worked hard and I deserve this trimmer fitter body.
I have issues making a capital i when i type so i apologise in advance for all the little i's you see. Well need to check this out more then head off to my SAHM duties and put Jr2 to bed.
And no I am not Halle Berry, I wish I was, if not for her life then for her body, yep that would be enough.
Thursday, October 05, 2006
BOOKCLUB: Past Secrets by Cathy Kelly
I saw this book in "The Great Read Guide 2006" it raised my attention because it said the story line was similar to that of the TV show Desperate Housewives which I enjoy watching, here is a short synopsis:
The women of Summer Street have their fair share of secrets and soon learn that if you keep a secret too long it will creep out when you least expect it! This is a warm and moving new novel from the no.1 bestselling author of "Always and Forever". Keep a secret too long and it will creep out when you least expect it! Behind the shining windows and rose-bedecked gardens of Summer Street, there are lots of secrets. There's the one that hard-working single mother, Faye, hides from her teenage daughter, Amber. And there's the one that thirty-year-old Maggie hides from herself. When fiery Amber decides to throw away her future for love, and when Maggie ends up back home looking after her sick mother, their secrets begin to bubble over. The only person on Summer Street who appears to know all the answers is their friend Christie. Wise and kind, she can see into other people's hearts to solve their problems. Except that this time, the secrets she's hidden from her beloved husband and grown up sons suddenly reappear. When the past comes alive for Maggie, Faye and Christie, they finally have to face it.
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
BOOKCLUB: A review~Marley & Me by John Grogan
Today I finished reading Marley and Me, it was a lovely biography of
one dogs life and his role in his family. You knew where the book
would lead to with his death and I must say I had a knot in my throat
reading about it, you came to love this crazy dog just as his owners
had.
This quote is the best way to describe this dog and the whole mood of
the book..."Marley was a funny, bigger-than-life pain in the ass who
never quite got the hang of the whole chain-of-command thing.
Honestly, he might well have been the world's worst-behaved dog. Yet
he intuitively grasped from the start what it meant to be man's best
friend."
The book made me remember the dogs that I grew up with, "Muchie" the
first dog I remember, a short and stocky corgie. Then "Lillie" the
gracious x-Collie named after my grandmother, who had the same
beautiful temperament and sensitive look in her eyes. "Sambo" was our
crazy Marley like dog, full of spirit and no matter how many times we
tried to walk him would surge ahead choking his way on the lead. There
was little "Pee-wee" who little life just ended to quickly and our
stray miniature Doberman pincher "Hank".
These were the dogs my family had, I must say myself I have not had
much luck with dogs as pets, our first dog whilst were were still
going out was "Nelson", big beautifully shiny coated Border Collie, we
didn't think when we bought him and when we decided to travel OS he
was left behind and in his curious nature bitten by a funnel web
spider and no longer here on our return. Then when we moved into our
first rental, M decided to get a pre-loved Staffie called "Bronte" we
quickly realised why she was pre-loved and soon she also was a
post-love and handed onto a friend (story tell us that she bite their
child and was sent off to become a guard dog, most likely a good job
for her!)
Our last dog and the reason I am likely not to get another dog in the
near future was "Molly" our cute Jack Russell terrier. Molly was our
first little baby, before we had the boys, she was a house dog and
watch TV with us on the couch, then when I fell pregnant and forced to
stay in hospital as I was ill she fretted and ran away. Using her
ancestral skills she dug her way to freedom. Thankfully her microchip
scanned at the local vet and she was returned to us only to escape
again. I was still in hospital, M was working late nights and no time
to secure the yard to ensure she didn't run away again, so off to
Pop's she went and there she stayed. She returned to us in 2005 due to
an incident with another dog at Pop's house. We thought she was happy
with us, we were happy with her, but she missed her other dog friend
(even though they had a little disagreement where she ended up at the
vets) and one day whilst i was out taking the kids to swimming lesson,
she once again dug her way to freedom and out of out lives. Come home
Molly the boys miss you!
So anyway, "Marley & Me" was a great book, not to light not to heavy,
if you a lover of dogs I think you'll enjoy it.
My latest book on reserve has arrived and now I move onto "Past
Secrets" by Cathy Kelly, will find a synopsis and put it up soon.
one dogs life and his role in his family. You knew where the book
would lead to with his death and I must say I had a knot in my throat
reading about it, you came to love this crazy dog just as his owners
had.
This quote is the best way to describe this dog and the whole mood of
the book..."Marley was a funny, bigger-than-life pain in the ass who
never quite got the hang of the whole chain-of-command thing.
Honestly, he might well have been the world's worst-behaved dog. Yet
he intuitively grasped from the start what it meant to be man's best
friend."
The book made me remember the dogs that I grew up with, "Muchie" the
first dog I remember, a short and stocky corgie. Then "Lillie" the
gracious x-Collie named after my grandmother, who had the same
beautiful temperament and sensitive look in her eyes. "Sambo" was our
crazy Marley like dog, full of spirit and no matter how many times we
tried to walk him would surge ahead choking his way on the lead. There
was little "Pee-wee" who little life just ended to quickly and our
stray miniature Doberman pincher "Hank".
These were the dogs my family had, I must say myself I have not had
much luck with dogs as pets, our first dog whilst were were still
going out was "Nelson", big beautifully shiny coated Border Collie, we
didn't think when we bought him and when we decided to travel OS he
was left behind and in his curious nature bitten by a funnel web
spider and no longer here on our return. Then when we moved into our
first rental, M decided to get a pre-loved Staffie called "Bronte" we
quickly realised why she was pre-loved and soon she also was a
post-love and handed onto a friend (story tell us that she bite their
child and was sent off to become a guard dog, most likely a good job
for her!)
Our last dog and the reason I am likely not to get another dog in the
near future was "Molly" our cute Jack Russell terrier. Molly was our
first little baby, before we had the boys, she was a house dog and
watch TV with us on the couch, then when I fell pregnant and forced to
stay in hospital as I was ill she fretted and ran away. Using her
ancestral skills she dug her way to freedom. Thankfully her microchip
scanned at the local vet and she was returned to us only to escape
again. I was still in hospital, M was working late nights and no time
to secure the yard to ensure she didn't run away again, so off to
Pop's she went and there she stayed. She returned to us in 2005 due to
an incident with another dog at Pop's house. We thought she was happy
with us, we were happy with her, but she missed her other dog friend
(even though they had a little disagreement where she ended up at the
vets) and one day whilst i was out taking the kids to swimming lesson,
she once again dug her way to freedom and out of out lives. Come home
Molly the boys miss you!
So anyway, "Marley & Me" was a great book, not to light not to heavy,
if you a lover of dogs I think you'll enjoy it.
My latest book on reserve has arrived and now I move onto "Past
Secrets" by Cathy Kelly, will find a synopsis and put it up soon.
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