Saturday, February 23, 2008

I need my blog.

I have decided that I really need to blog more as I am just not feeling myself these days and really need to just lay down my thoughts no matter how trivial just so they are are out on my mind.

The Man is finally ready to share the cable net but we just need to work out how to use the router. My wonderful easy peasy Mac finds the net no issues, but his PC refuses to co-operate and so I continue to battle with the crap Unwired service I am connected too. The Man has been very kind though and allow me to use his computer when ever he is not, but thre is no private function there (like here in Safari) and I would have to delete history as I want this blog to be private from him. I always feel I have to expalin that it's not like I want to keep secrets from him, as nothing on here is that personal, but its a bit of me that is just me. He reads my hand journal and so I always have to be a little diplomatic, so to speak.

I've been feeling really down lately, I'm just not motivated to do anything, exercise, read, write, ride, walk, nothing. Everything frustrates me, I mean everything usual did but now it's to the point I just sit back and let it all run over me. I feel like nothing, an unimportant blimp in society. If I disappeared tomorrow I'm sure no one would notice, I think deep down that I know that is not the truth but it's just the feelings I feel these days. I put this in my hand journal and The Man read it and started on me, saying I'm pathetic and not a teen and just move on and get a grip...so I need this quiet place of my own.

I enjoy to scrap though,I think as it is all me, deigned by me, and my feeling in it, but it can suck so much of my time that I do nothing else and then I get in trouble like a child and need to be reprimanded.

So I plan to blog more, to release what ever it is that is holding me back at the moment and to find the smile that used to be on my face daily.

So I apologise in advance to my minimal readers, your going to be reading a whole lot of boring SAHM stuff! Turn your RSS off now!

December 2007 Holidays in <<

(Rewind!)

Cont...
31/12/07 10pm New Years Eve:
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Pissing this rain, so no fireworks on the beach as planned and stuck in the house to get blinded to my eyeballs and until I threw up!


31/12/07 New Years Eve - Byron Bay:
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We are standing at the road here, there was literally no access to the beach unless you owned a surfboard and had no fear of death by drowning.

29/12/07 Warner Bros. Movie World - Theme Park
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Great day but ridiculously expensive.

28/12/07 QLD Playgrouper and visited Ex-Canadian Non-Uncle (picture to be updated)
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27/12/07 - Pissing with rain, nothing to do but to go shopping!

26/12/07 Boxing Day @ Estranged-Just-Found-Aunt (picture to be updated)
This is a strange story, but it was recently discovered that The Man's grandfather had several children other then the ones that are noted as siblings to The Man's father. One such child was adopted and has only now found her family, sadly she missed seeing her father as he has passed but she is trying to link to her half-brothers/sisters. She was nice, a little scare with the familiarity of the "The Man Family genes", as in you can certainly tell she is from that clan.

25/12/07 Christmas Day @ My Bro's
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24/12/07 Christmas Eve
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Look at Little Man and his Hot Wheel collection!

23/12/07 Currumbin Beach - before the cyclone hit and we could never return!
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22/12/07 Rest up from the drive and just enjoy Gold Coast QLD
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View from mum's

21/12/07 Drove from NSW to QLD all on my own! I picked up The Man directly from working a 14hr nightshift and just kept heading north. I now respect that dude that talks about Micro Sleeps on the TV, I think I nearly had a few. I do not recommend anyone to drive 11 hours straight!
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Some pretty Rainbow Lorikeets to greet me on our arrival.

Thursday, February 21, 2008

Arrrr, this shouldn't be so hard

I wanted to change my profile picture, I've had enough on "no crack" and so have my 2 blog readers too (and that is an assumption I even have 2 readers!) but can I do it, bloody no! I got rid of the old one but to upload the new one...nup just not happening for at all.

Come on Blogger, give a mum a break!

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

My January Holidays in <<

(Rewind!)
Best buddy play dates, 26/1/08 (also Australia Day)
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Nielsen Park -Vaucluse, with the ex-playgroupers, 25/1/08
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Little Manly Beach, with the Balgowlah crew 24/1/08
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Reptile Park - Gosford. 17/1/08
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The Man's birthday, 15/1/08
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Visit our old roomies, 14/1/08 (now with child additions too!)
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Westmead Childrens Hospital, 7-10/1/08
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10 hour drive home through flood bound towns, 6/1/07

Farewell lunch with the QLD family, 5/1/07
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Dinner with the QLD playgroupers, 4/1/08
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Closed beaches of the Gold coast, 3/1/08
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Brilliant weather brings horrible uninvited creatures, 2/1/08
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Happy Wet New Year, 1/1/08
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More rewind of Dec in a little while!